High School is over
here is my fresh start

ok ppl pick one

jagged edges
 faded beauty
 faded memories
 sugar costed memories
or rough around the edges

i need the input

these past few days have been fun.  Day's was jus so great wit all those ppl.  learned sum stuff bout me and learned sum stuff bout others.  loved tryin to play the guitar.  "all you wanted" will b forever in my head.  and i no the days of us chillin and laughin n hangin together are not over we just wont c each other as much as we want.  im gonna miss Day n everyone else who left for college already.  ill miss jackie too.  hope shes havin for at slippery rock. 

I'm jaded, stupid, and wreckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret.
These years spent, so faded and wreckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret these years.
I'll never regret these years.

Now here i sit, so far away.
Remembering all our memories.
Its times like these that I miss you most,
Remembering when we were so close.

And it's been awhile
Since I can say that I wasn't addicted
And it's been awhile
Since I can say I love myself as well
And it's been awhile
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do

owww ........fuckin wall......

i stopped wishing...........................finally

and yes im bak

im back.  but this is a one time post.  im not ok at the moment but i will survive.  ive learned a lot about my self and how i act towards others.  i have a few more scars and bruises.  but i will be ok.  in time everything will work out.  i need to jus leave again for a lil.  i dont no when i will b bak.  everyone is leavin so soon.  i hate it.  im missin so many ppl.  but goodbye for me.  i ship out on nov 29th now.  so no im not goin to boot camp rite now.  i fell we r growin apart.  n i cant hold on as much as i want to.  so im jus gonna let things happen as they will.  if it all works out then fine and i start to feel like we r not growin apart ne more then fine.  but if not then i guess i have a new life to look forward to. 

i love all of my friends.

my ture friends i will never forget you but there will be a time when we will embark on our own journey.  That time is comming all to quickly and we may have to say goodbye.  some forever.  but remember this.  you have imapcted my life and i will never forget you.  In some way shape or form you have made me a better person.  I will always miss you and will always have you in my prayers.  we are all at a crossroad in our lives teetering on the  edge of childhood and adulthood.  take the first step towards the rest of your life.  regret nothing and remember to never look back only forward.  i love having all of you in my life.  i apprecate you and thank you for all of the times you have helped me. 

that sums up everything.  u no how to reach me.  im done. 

I seen a rainbow yesterday
But too many storms have come and gone
Leavin' a trace of not one God-given ray
Is it because my life is ten shades of gray I
pray all ten fade away
Seldom praise Him for the sunny days

And like His promise is true
Only my faith can undo
The many chances I blew
To bring my life to anew
Clear blue and unconditional skies
Have dried the tears from my eyes
No more lonely cries
My only bleedin' hope
Is for the folk who can't cope
Wit such an endurin' pain
That it keeps 'em in the pourin' rain
Who's to blame
For tootin' caine in your own vein
What a shame
You shoot and aim for someone else's brain
You claim the insane
And name this day and time
For fallin' prey to crime
I say the system got you victim to your own mind

Dreams are hopeless aspirations
In hopes of comin' true
Believe in yourself
The rest is up to me and you

ive said all ive need to say.  we r all goin to b seperated soon ne way so forget it im leavin now.  u no how to get in touch wit me.  but i may not b there ne more

ok guys this really is it.  no more xanga.   im changin a lot of things.  so much for my happy ending.  changin.  this time for good.  its time for me to start.  goodbye...............this time for good.

Out on the road today, I saw a BLACK FLAG sticker on a Cadillac
A little voice Inside my head said, "Don't look back. You can never look back."

No lookin back. 

No regrets.